Oh Kathy I'm really really sorry.
I've lost all my grandparents- But I know that it's not the same at all. Still I have tried sitting next to a person, holding the person's hand and just waiting for the fact that you don't want to face. My grandfather who passed away this Christmas had cancer, and had been ill for quite sometime. But it was within a month or so it really started to grow serious. And in the end, he couldn't do anything but lying in his bed and perhaps trying really hard to drink a little water or so. I remember sitting next to him, crying a little, whispering how much he meant to me (He meant a lot!) and then finally hugging him and kissing his forehead. Then saying goodbye. But, I kinda said goodbye 7 times or so before it was the real goodbye. Or should I say the real "See you"? Cos I believe I will see my grandfather again, just like I believe you will see your father again. In fact when my grandmother was dying (and had been in coma for 5 days and the doctors had said there was no way she would be conscious again) she suddenly opened her mouth saying these words to my dad: "We will meet again, Torben (My dad), we will." and then she passed away. I know it sounds unreal but it's true. And therefore I really believe I will meet her and my grandfather among others in heaven.
I can only imagine how hard it must be for you. I'm praying that God will give you strenght and be with you (Though I already know he is!)
Lots of thoughts and hugs from Denmark ~ Vibs.
((Hug))