It’s only in my dreams that I leave. When I wake up I always have faith again. I have no idea why I have those crazy dreams. Dreams are crazy.
When people challenge my beliefs and tell me I am being hateful and bigoted, I like to tell them that I’m too scared to leave and explain how I came to the faith
so they will leave me alone and have more understanding and compassion.
You shouldn't feel scared. That almost sounds like you're being held somewhere against your will. You should be in faith because you want to. God gave us freedom to choose to believe in Him or not.
What so many people miss (Christians included) is the price Jesus paid for our salvation. We didn't earn it, we don't deserve it.
But he paid for the sins of everyone who ever walked this earth. Not just believers, but everybody. And not just 2,000 years ago, but for all time. That's how big his sacrifice was, and nobody could fill that sacrifice but Him.
I've been walking with Him for twenty years now. Do I still sin? Yes. I still screw up every day. That's where His grace comes in. Even people as holy as Mother Teresa still felt she fell short of God's absolute majesty.
But that's where we get lifted up. Because of His love. But without that relationship between us and Him, none of it means anything.