Ilikemuppets and heralde, you guys completely rock. You both make alot of sense and it's nice to know you guys understand!
What is happening for me is: I tried to do an animation kind of field, and I've discovered that it's not for me. My rose-coloured glasses have been forcibly removed and I realise now that it's not what I want for me (and also not what I expected). I want to change what I'm doing and try to become a teacher. It's a big change! I think that I can do it. I gotta work really hard to get in and I've got alot of pressure, trying to finish what I'm doing while getting organised for next year... It's hard to believe in yourself sometimes when you feel so mixed up, but I can't feel like I failed. I tried, I gave it an honest shot and worked my butt off! I don't quit. So now I gotta find what's right for me. Hopefully I'll be able to do that.