Well I've just had a nice talk with a Presbyterian Christian friend of mine and he's given me some excellent food for thought.
Regarding my grandmother's over-protectiveness he says I should remember that the Bible says I should always give thanks in all situations. Not simply in pleasant situations. I should praise God that my grandmother cares for me at all when there are many parents and grandparents in the world who couldn't care less about their family.
And I really shouldn't allow my past worries combined with people I'm concerned about today to upset me to the point where I'm not sleeping well, not eating well, not keeping up to date with doing the laundry or the dishes or showering regularly or even shaving. Yes I know how stupid it may seem but while I really don't like having facial hair much I'm currently growing it because of my spiritual problems
But what my friend said is true so I'm seriously considering moving back with my relatives after my third 6 month lease in my unit is up. And I'm commiting myself to letting go of my hurt with God's help I've showered and done the dishes tonight and I'm going to start doing those things every day and I hope to do some laundry tomorrow. My swearing is already much improved so I appreciate you all to remember to keep me in prayer to get myself strong in God's Grace for what I feel I must do.
And my female friend Shannon still gives me happiness so if she's ever ready for a serious relationship I pray I will be a good Christian husband and that she will bless my spiritual life with her Catholic faith.
God bless you all dear friends
Bill "Marty" Bubble Guy