Dealing with depression and anxiety

[charlietheowl]

Having both depression and anxiety is a monster. Lately, I've been hyperventilating when I go to bed.

I hope you're feeling better now. Feeling anxious when you're trying to sleep is the worst, especially when you're in bed already and don't want to get up out of bed.

 

[DramaQueenMokey]

Hi, everyone! I did recently sprain my ankle (bad sprain contusion combo actually) but, I had counseling today and, my counselor said that despite my injury and even with one jerk professor I have, I have been continuing forward and triumphing. My parents' drama never seems to cease but, that is what it is. I have been clean from self-harm 5 months, almost 6

Hope everyone is doing well and if not, sending happy thoughts and positive vibes <3

 

[DramaQueenMokey]

Sorry for double-posting all but, I fought a very strong urge to hurt myself today (after my mom went off on over something so stupid) and then started to fight about how emotions are invalid and, once she left me alone I just wanted to slash skin open but, I didn't. I am seeing someone new now and, he and I are getting to know each other with no rushing into things and, I don't want to have to be like: 'Yeah so, I relapsed self-harm wise," on our next date but, not only that but, December is almost here and that will make me a full 6 months of being self-harm free!!! I cannot throw such a thing away. Plus, I'm going to be reading some poetry at a suicide prevention/awareness event on my college campus like I have been these past 2 years.

Last year I read this poem:


The ping-pong ball eyed frog said it best:



It's not so easy being green.



For those of you who aren't that familiar with his song or the meaning, let me help.



What that wise ol' frog is getting at is, it can get difficult at times even just to be ourselves.



We are all just people and, we're not going to feel tall like trees day in and day out.



But, by taking it step by step, remembering to breathe and knowing that we'll all have our moments to stand out like flashy sparkles in the water;



We get down to the facts:



Being different is not wrong. It is a beautiful thing.



Ourselves to the fullest; that's what we ought to be.

And, this year I will be reading this poem:


You don’t need to wear a cape or have super strength,



You aren’t required to equip a lasso of truth or to command some hammer with a name no one can pronounce,



There’s no need for a lab accident or explosion, and



You’re not expected to be hiding away on an iceberg somewhere...



Hard as it may be, you pick yourself up each day;



You get out of bed, go about your routine and no matter how much energy it takes:



There’s a never-wavering-fighting spirit and within all of that effort…



There’s a realization that having made the choice to go on was tough but, you did it.



Day to day, you are fighting the good fight.



That’s a hero if I ever did see one.

I have chose to share both of these because I know how tough depression/anxiety and fighting those urges to hurt ourselves are; if anyone needs them, please read those poems and use them to move past the pain (no matter how long that takes). If it feels like no one else is there for you right now, please know that I am <3

 

[CensoredAlso]

I always dread going to bed at night, always seem to have nightmares. And tonight I'm just so hopeless, so miserable. I hate my life. Nothing else to it, I just hate it.

 

[Flaky Pudding]

My Grandma is in the hospital right now and I'm really worried about her considering she's been sick numerous times in the past few years,

 

[Flaky Pudding]

Not to get too off topic, but I have a great idea for Muppet Central. What about more things than just the "like" feature. So when somebody posts something like "My Grandma just died," you don't have to press like and accidentally sound rude just to acknowledge them.

 

[MikaelaMuppet]

My Grandma is in the hospital right now and I'm really worried about her considering she's been sick numerous times in the past few years,

Wicked sorry to hear this my friend. My neighbor is still in the hospital as of right now as well.

 

[CensoredAlso]

My Grandma is in the hospital right now and I'm really worried about her considering she's been sick numerous times in the past few years,

I'm so sorry, you must be very worried. Best wishes to your family!

 

[Mo Frackle]

I always dread going to bed at night, always seem to have nightmares. And tonight I'm just so hopeless, so miserable. I hate my life. Nothing else to it, I just hate it.

I've had days like that. They're the worst. But I've found that they come and go, and I try to remind myself that. I also have this quote saved as my phone's wallpaper:

"You owe yourself the love that you so freely give to other people."

I know, loving yourself is sometimes easier said that done. But I try to remember that I wouldn't like it if those negative things I say to myself were said to me by someone else.

Still have stressful dreams, too. Lots of the classic 'falling from heights' ones. Funny thing is I'm so used to them now, when they come up, my brain will just sort of go, "*sigh* Here we go again..."

My Grandma is in the hospital right now and I'm really worried about her considering she's been sick numerous times in the past few years,

Sorry to hear that. My grandmother hasn't been doing well either. She's had to use a walker for about a year or two now, and actually fell down and couldn't get up last week.

Not to get too off topic, but I have a great idea for Muppet Central. What about more things than just the "like" feature. So when somebody posts something like "My Grandma just died," you don't have to press like and accidentally sound rude just to acknowledge them.

It's a nice idea, but unfortunately not something Muppet Central decides. Perhaps the folks behind the XenForo software will try adding it someday.

Quick update - recently started a long distance relationship. It's going quite well, actually.

I just have the usual post-college anxieties (I'll be graduating in May). On the plus side, I've been doing some freelance work recently. Not making enough to afford rent, so I'm still stuck living with mom and dad, but it's a start.

 

[scooterfan360]

well I'm not dealing with depression, but I'm dealing with family stress caused by my mom and dad, and I'm afraid that any day now that I'm going to have a melt down, my mom is really getting to be a self absorbed, self entitled, nutcase, she thinks that just because she gave birth to me, and my sisters, and brother, that we owe her, she goes to the casino, and blows all of her money, then she expects us to lend her money, and not ask for it back, she gets mad if we do ask for it back, and if don't have any money to lend out to her, she would say that i need to manage my money, and stop spending it on food. i only get enough to buy things like food, clothes, and personal items, and to pay my bills. thank god that i have finally got on my feet, and moved out, or else i would have to hear her 24 hours a day. and my dad continues to be a fat lazy slob, it takes him like half an hour to put on a pair of pants, and heaven forbid that you ask him to fix something for you, it would never get fixed.