Thank you all for your comments.. I have more an *update* so to speak. She came over tonight and stayed till' about 10. We got some things resolved, she actually told me what she wants from me. You see, I am always asking if she care about me and all, and she says she wants to see that I care about HER and that I don't just want to feel like she cares about me. She said sometimes she feels like I'm just with her because I feel like someone cares.. because I obviously am missing that from my life..and would definantly be missing that without her.
That is definantly not the case with me. I love her more than anything.. Ok, maybe I should tell you something to help you understand how close we are..the only reason I am posting this is because I know you people are non-judgemental and caring..
anyways, I ran away with this girl 2 years ago, and we have talked about the future..and while I don't know if things will go as planned.. i know I want to spend my life with her. I love her, and she has never given me a reason to think she will cheat..but I often feel threatened by other guys even when she tells me that I am the one she loves and that she thinks I am attractive..
I just feel like I am losing my grip on things.. I cryed in her arms tonight.. I mean in general, my life is great, I just want to work through these problems..
P.S-BEAR, I would love to talk to you in private more about this.. it could help.
Thanks, everybody.
Drake.