Chapter Twenty-Four
The Next Day
October 23, 1971
Kermit could feel the thick, protective cloak of darkness around him as he walked down Cole Street with the flowers in his hand. There was a haze of light on the horizon where the sun would rise soon. He pushed the gate open, let it swing shut behind him, and looked around. Yes, all was in order. He crossed the grass and put the six lilies in front of the smaller tombstone.
“Hey Ray,” he said softly. “I brought you some lilies again. Do you remember the lily pads, in the swamp?” He hesitated. “We used to race across them… Everyone still races over them. It’s fun, because they change every year…” His voice trailed off.
He put the sunflowers in front of the larger tombstone and sat down. “Happy Anniversary, Melinda,” he said. He struggled for words. “It… it’s supposed to be nice day today… I would take you for a picnic if I could…” He sighed. “I’m so lonely, Melinda. I told you I bought a house, and- well, it’s a nice house, but- it just seems so empty now, with Robin gone. It’s like I’m missing something. I- I’m missing you and Ray. But I can’t have you.” He looked down. “And that- that hurts.”
He hesitated before slowly looking up at her tombstone again.
“Melinda… I don’t
want to hurt,” he said quietly. “I’m so tired of hurting.”
He stood up and slowly paced in front of the two graves. “Maybe… maybe that’s why I was flirting with… that girl at the bookstore. I’m just so lonely… I need
people, you know? I need a relationship-“ he turned suddenly and looked at her grave. “I mean, not a relationship, really, but…” He inched closer and knelt down. “But… a little, just… harmless flirting, maybe? It wouldn’t- I don’t want to hurt you, Melinda. I still love you. I always
will love you. I just- I won’t-“ He took a slow, steadying breath. “I’m not trying to forget you,” he said quietly. “I’m just… trying to be happy.”
He let the words sit for a moment. Then he straightened up with half a teasing grin.
“Now that’s not a very good way to end a visit, is it? Especially on our anniversary.” He readjusted how he was sitting while facing her grave attentively, almost hearing her agree that no, it wasn’t a good way to end a visit.
“Well, everything’s going well on Sesame Street. It’s kind of a crazy place, but I like it…”
He sat there, quietly telling little stories, until the sun was high enough to cast a distinct shadow. Then he stood up, stepped between the graves, and put one hand on each tombstone. “I love you,” he whispered. Then he slipped away, before the residents of the street were awake enough to see him.
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Later that night, a group gathered at
Jack and Daniel’s Bar to celebrate a visit from their nomadic friend.
“Hey Rowlf!” Kermit called cheerfully as he approached. “It’s good to see you in town for a change!”
“Hey Kermit, how’s it going?” Rowlf pulled over a stool for his amphibian friend.
“
There’s the frog,” Jerry Juhl said.
“Well boys, what are we drinking to?” Rowlf said.
“Nothing. Kermit doesn’t have a drink yet,” Jim said.
“Well what’s taking so long?” Frank Oz teased. “Kermit, get a drink all ready!”
“I just got here!” Kermit said.
They laughed until Kermit got his drink.
“All right,” Jerry Nelson said, “
Now what are we drinking to?”
Joe Raposo half-raised his hand. “To names starting with the letter J,” he said.
Jim, Joe, Jerry, and Jerry all laughed and clinked glasses.
“You can’t get away from Sesame Street, can you?” Rowlf said.
“So what do the other half of us drink to?” Don Sahlin asked.
Kermit lifted his glass. “To names starting with D, F, R, and K.” He laughed with Don, Frank, and Rowlf as they clinked their own glasses.
Jim chuckled. “What should we drink to, seriously,” he said.
“I don’t think any of us know the meaning of the word,” Rowlf said.
“Which word?” Frank asked.
“Seriously.”
They laughed. “Probably true,” Jim said. “But there must be something more than letters to drink to.”
“Oh sure,” Jerry Nelson said. “Health, happiness, wealth, um… women…”
“Why women?” Don said. “There aren’t any here to drink to.”
“Well, there’s uh…” Jerry looked around. “There’s some women over there, at the other end of the bar. We’ll drink to them.”
“All right.” Rowlf raised his glass. “To those women over there, whoever they are.” They clinked their glasses and drank. Rowlf watched Kermit’s face as they did. Then he leaned over towards him. “Don’t like your drink?” he whispered.
“Hm?” Kermit looked at him.
Rowlf shook his head. “We’ll talk,” he whispered.
Kermit nodded.
“So how’s the road been treating you, Rowlf?” Frank asked.
“Like a dog,” Rowlf said.
They chuckled over their drinks for almost an hour before Joe glanced at his watch and announced that he needed to leave. After a few minutes, Don had to go as well, followed by Jerry Nelson, and Frank, and then Jerry Juhl.
“And actually, I should get home, too,” Jim said when Jerry had left. “Say goodnight to the kids before they’re
too sound asleep.”
“Been workin’ late again, huh?” Rowlf said.
“Yeah.” Jim stood up and shrugged. “But I enjoy it, so why not?” Rowlf and Kermit nodded their agreement. “Good to see you, Rowlf.”
“You too.”
“See you, Kermit.”
“Later, Jim.”
They watched him stroll out, and then turned to each other.
“Well?” Rowlf said.
“Well what?” Kermit said.
“
Well what, what?”
Kermit hesitated. “
What?”
Rowlf shook his head and spoke quietly. “You visited her today?” he said.
Kermit nodded, looked at his drink, and sighed. “It would’ve been six years,” he said sadly.
“It’s getting to you, isn’t it,” Rowlf said.
Kermit looked at him. “Pardon?”
“Being alone,” Rowlf said. “I saw your face when we made that toast. I mean, you don’t even flirt, do you?”
“Well, that’s actually- sort of- what I…” Kermit squirmed a little on his stool. “I talked to her about it today,” he said quietly.
“Oh, yeah?” Rowlf said. “What did you say?”
Kermit shrugged. “That I’m lonely,” he said. “That I’m tired of hurting.”
“Yeah,” Rowlf nodded. Then he gave his friend a strange look. “So what did
she say?”
Kermit scrunched his face up. “Rowlf…”
“I don’t mean like that,” the dog said. “I mean what did it
feel like she
would have said?”
“Well- See that’s the thing, it-“ He looked around. “Can we talk about this some place a little less crowded?”
Rowlf nodded. “Less smoke would be nice, too. Let’s walk over to your new place, I haven’t been there yet.”
“Oh that’s true, you haven’t,” Kermit said. They went outside.
“You were saying?” Rowlf said as they fell into step.
“Well- sometimes, when I talk to her, I can
feel how she would react, like you said. But… But sometimes I can’t.”
“Oh?”
“Well, like today, for example. I could feel her agreeing that my flirting was not a good topic to end a visit with, but I couldn’t feel anything about the topic itself.”
“Huh.” Rowlf scratched his ear. “Didn’t you used to feel her all the time?”
“No matter what I talked about,” Kermit agreed. “And I can still feel Ray, I mean… I can feel him running around, you know? But I can’t always feel
her anymore. It’s almost like-“ He stopped himself.
Rowlf looked at him. “Like you’re losing her?” he said softly.
Kermit looked at the sidewalk and watched as he put one flipper in front of the other. “But she’s already gone,” he whispered.
They didn’t say anything else until they were safely inside Kermit’s house.
“So
do you flirt?” Rowlf asked.
Kermit sighed as they sat on the sofa. “Well… I did once, a couple weeks ago. I felt pretty guilty about it.”
“So in the past four years, you’ve only flirted once?” Rowlf shook his head. “That’s not healthy, Kermit. At least tell me she was flirting with you, too.”
“Well yeah,” Kermit said. “I wouldn’t have if she hadn’t.”
“Was she pretty?” Rowlf asked.
“She wasn’t bad looking,” Kermit said. “She was just working the register, you know? At that new book store… You know, over on Market Central Road?”
“Oh sure!” Rowlf said. “Well there’s nothing wrong with that. There’s no harm in flirting with cashier. Nothing ever comes of it.”
Kermit shrugged. “I guess that’s true,” he said. “I was actually thinking, that- well, it felt kind of good, you know? And it’s not like I was going to fall in love with her.”
“Not that anyone ever
intends to fall in love,” Rowlf said.
“Well…” Kermit squirmed, looking a little guilty. “But you can intend
not to fall in love.”
Rowlf scratched his ear. “I’m not sure how well that works,” he said. “I think if it’s going to happen, it’s going to happen.”
Kermit looked down, sighed, and shook his head.
“Of course, there’s nothing to say that you’ll fall in love just because you’re flirting- or that you
won’t fall in love if you’re
not flirting,” Rowlf said.
Kermit thought about it. “Well that’s true, I guess,” he said.
Rowlf put his chin in his paw. “So?” he said. “You were thinking about flirting more, weren’t you?”
Kermit nodded. “I was thinking about it, yeah.”
“Well, don’t think about it,” Rowlf said somewhat philosophically. “Just sort of sit back and let it happen. You’ll be a happier frog for it.”
“I hope so,” Kermit nodded.
“I know so,” Rowlf said. He stood up. “So, are you gonna show me around this house, or do I have to sniff it out on my own?”
Kermit stood. “Oh sure, I can show you around,” he said. “This is the living room…”
“New furniture, isn’t it?” Rowlf said.
Kermit nodded. “Yup. It’s all new. Uh, kitchen’s there, there’s the bathroom, and that’s a closet.”
Rowlf nodded. “What happened to those pictures you had?”
“Oh those are upstairs,” Kermit said. “Come on, I’ll show you.”
They hurried up the stairs. The four pictures were hanging on the wall facing the door to Kermit’s bedroom, the same way they had been in his apartment. Rowlf nodded his approval.
“But you know the one thing I
don’t like about this house sometimes?” Kermit said.
“What’s that?”
“It’s too quiet,” he said. “Especially after Robin leaves.”
Rowlf smiled. “Oh that’s easy to fix,” he said. “Just play your banjo.”