Confession Time

[Sgt Floyd]

Makes me sound like a pirate captain. Arrr!

XD

 

[Lola p]

I couldn't resist...

 

[MartyMuppets]

I like it. Captain Joey. AAARRRR!

 

[tutter_fan]

I have to admit that for nearly 20 years (and I quit doing this for nearly 2 years) one thing I've done which is a complete embarrassment to me (Thanks to my grandparents) is being around people like me who have a disability. Personally, I don't know how or why I got involved, but I know one thing: someone as smart as I am wouldn't be stupid enough to come up with an insane idea like hanging out with people who know next to nothing about a lot of things. (I am not saying that everyone I know at the programs I went to who are like me are pure idiots, but for some reason, I feel that way for some reason.) How was I to deal with these people? Most had Down Syndrome, and I just feel that by being around these individuals, I was literally risking the fact that I myself could end up becoming stupid for the rest of my life. The reason why I did it for 20 years is because for one thing, when I had started, I had not much else to keep me busy, it gave me something to do, and it kept me out of trouble. But that's besides the point. I have Williams Syndrome (Chromosome #7 is missing in my DNA), and I'm quite intelligent, and frankly, I have to be picky about people I hang out with, because not everyone like me is into everything I'm into, and they may not like the same things I like. The reason why I feel embarrassed for being who I am is because when my grandparents used to say that "Nathan knows everybody", they had assumed that I knew everyone like me who has a disability, and liked being around others like me. I felt that I couldn't be myself when I was around these people, because I had to do the same things they did, and frankly, it wasn't easy. How was I supposed to have fun at the programs I signed up for if I couldn't have my fun, my way? Frank Sinatra did things his way, so why shouldn't people like me? I felt that unless I was going on a long trip with these people, I was literally wasting my own money, my own time, my own energy, and my own effort just to be around a bunch of people who were similar to me (in some ways) that I really didn't like. By quitting, I released myself from the heck hole I was put in (notice I have no cuss words in this admittance) and since I have the Internet, the Internet is where I spend most of my free time. I would rather surf the web than be around a bunch of people like me. I believe I'm much more intelligent than most of my (in my view) "so-called friends", and that's the way I want things to be. I quit being a participant at these programs for nearly 2 years, and I won't allow myself to risk becoming mentally retarded, and possibly suffer from it for the rest of my life. I have one life to live, and by my own beliefs, I SWEAR THAT I WILL LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST. I've made it my personal mission to satisfy myself by avoiding others like me. However, there are very few people that I do like that are like me (like the seniors), and even though I do give everyone I know like me as much respect as possible, I give the ones that I really like a LOT of respect. To me, by being in these programs I went to, I felt like I was in jail for being who I was. Another reason why I quit being around others like me is because for one thing, nobody can control who participates in these programs, so I virtually ran the risk of coming across someone who signed up for the program I signed up for that would probably make me suffer from mental stupidity, and I for one am not the kind of person who would allow that kind of thing to happen. I didn't want to hurt others physically, nor would I want to hurt them verbally. It wouldn't be right of me to do so, so I quit nearly 2 years ago, and the only regret I have about quitting 2 years ago is that I wish I had quit when I was younger. But again, I had A B S O L U T E L Y N O C H O I C E W H A T S O E V E R in the matter.

 

[tutter_fan]

I hate to be a nitpick, but I had to let out all my frustration about my feelings towards most people I know like me, because I feel that I've been negatively criticized too much. I am someone who hates being judged. I mean, positive judgement is great, but negative judgement is something I don't accept. I mean, I normally don't criticize myself, but I unfortunately have. I just can't believe that I was idiotic enough to go to these programs, and spend my own time, money, energy, and effort just to do things with people I don't know when I possibly could have spent all that time, money, energy and effort to do things that I would've probably enjoyed doing. One things for sure, if those "so-called friends" of mine want me back, or if my grandparents want me to go back, they're going to have to give me a few "valid" reasons why I should go back. I felt old doing this stuff, and I wasn't enjoying it one bit. On the outside, it might've looked like I enjoyed being around these people doing whatever it was I was doing with them, but in my mind, I kept yelling at myself: "What the (hockey stick) do you think you're doing to yourself?! You don't know these people.... You're wasting away! You're going to become mentally stupid if you don't quit soon!" Not only that, I felt that I couldn't even trust these so-called friends of mine, because in my view, I personally doubt that most of them know what "friendship" is. If the guy in the sky (who most of you know, including me) allowed me to, I'd take the time to give some of my so-called friends (that my grandparents always referred to) a piece of my mind. But, I'm not that kind of person. There's no violence needed (plus it won't be tolerated), and I won't allow myself to hurt anyone like me. Severely hurting any of my own people could be a crime, and I'd end up in jail if that were to happen. I'm glad I quit when I did.

 

[MartyMuppets]

That's okay Tutter fan. It does you good to speak out about whatever you need to do.

 

[tutter_fan]

If you ever plan on visiting Douglasville GA, an attraction there that's a "MUST SEE" is "Champ's clock shop! They have, by far, the world's L A R G E S T selection of clocks, and there are some that you'll never find A N Y W H E R E E L S E!!!!!!!!!! They even have genuine cuckoo clocks imported from the Black Forest in Germany!

 

[mo]

If you ever plan on visiting Douglasville GA, an attraction there that's a "MUST SEE" is "Champ's clock shop! They have, by far, the world's L A R G E S T selection of clocks, and there are some that you'll never find A N Y W H E R E E L S E!!!!!!!!!! They even have genuine cuckoo clocks imported from the Black Forest in Germany!

I've never seen a black forest cuckoo clock before, but I've also never really been to georgia so...

 

[tutter_fan]

I figured I'd do an advertisement for them, because even though I don't work for them, and don't live in Douglasville GA, I'm into clocks, and this would be a really cool place to visit for a day. Believe me, you should look at their website!

 

[mo]

I figured I'd do an advertisement for them, because even though I don't work for them, and don't live in Douglasville GA, I'm into clocks, and this would be a really cool place to visit for a day. Believe me, you should look at their website!

I used to live in Germany outside Bonn when I was really young and I had a cuckoo clock and apparently it freaked me out, just like my mothers wide array of nutcrackers. *shudders*