ouch, that sucks. lol, that's so cool, i'm a member of JimHensonConnection as well, did you sign up for the secret santa? i did
so sorry to hear all that, i hate hearing when people have such rough lives, while mine wasn't perfect, i was bullied, and had a rough couple years due to a really bad divorce that i was placed in the middle of at age 10, i was never depressed, the hardest time for me i would say was this past year with my ex friend, the things he would say finally got a bit too much for me and i started doing everything i could to make him happy.
i don't see why people enjoy doing things like that, it also seems a little more acceptable for people to be mean, or you hear about it a lot more often, i don't understand why people enjoy being that way. ever since i was a kid, i've been a giver, my gandmother loves telling people this story where i was 3 and i was holding this door open for a guy in a wheelchair and how shocked she was by it because she use to look down on people who were different. i just try and picture myself doing that, because i was a tiny kid, i was the smallest in my class until i was about 14 lol [and it's not a big difference, i'm just average height, but still]
sometimes i wonder if how i turned out was what i use to watch and not realizing it influenced me, i always watched Fraggle Rock and that was designed to create world peace. i find myself a bright person but it wasn't until i heard that i stood back and said 'you know, now that you mention it, Fraggles need the Gorges to grow radishes that the Doozers make their sticks from that in turn feed the Fraggles...' lol, i still can't believe i never noticed the positive messages, i guess it's cuz i'm use to messages being beaten over my head until i'm sick of it.