The RHLC!

[MartyMuppets]

I'm deeply sorry about your nan Sara. May she RIP.

 

[ReneeLouvier]

[DISCLAIMER] **I am truely sorry, deeply sorry if this offended anyone who does have any type of disabilites or who knows someone who has this/these disabilities. I do not mean to trivialize, or make light of someone who is honestly dependent on medical aides.** [/DISCLAIMER]

Can I just say something to you guys and maybe try to get some feedback? Make sure I'm not completely bat-crap insane?

*deep breath* I want to have to use a wheelchair. And I don't fully understand why.

I feel not-so-horrible saying that, but I do know, and realize I'll probably get some flak for it. I do not understand my feelings behind this at all.

Does anyone have any idea as to why I feel like this? I'm completely embrassed. Only my best friends and Rob know about this. My parents, my physitrist, my counselor -- they don't know!

And I'm scared to tell them. I've always felt like this, for as long as I can remember. Maybe something from SS influenced me? Or....only God knows what it is or was that got me thinking like this.

It really disturbs me, because I kinda (not completely, but kinda) push it out of my head; then I see someone in a wheelchair, or rather using an electric one. Or on TV. And my thoughts fly back to that.

Please, anyone. You're my bestest friends on MC. I don't know if airing my own crap in The RHLC is kosher; but I am.

I just honestly need some kind of feedback about this. I will be talking to both my counselor (the 15th) and my physicstrist (the 29th) about this.

Thank you in major advance guys. Love you all.

[DISCLAIMER]**I am truely sorry, deeply sorry if this offended anyone who does have any type of disabilites or who knows someone who has this/these disabilities. I do not mean to trivialize, or make light of someone who is honestly dependent on medical aides.** [/DISCLAIMER]

 

[MartyMuppets]

It's important to talk about this Sara. You need to get it off your chest instead of keeping it all bottled up and churning inside of you. We are all here to talk to you and try to help you.

I hope you get good help from your counsellor and physicist.

 

[ReneeLouvier]

I did some research on it and there is something called "BIID" - which stands for "body integity identiny disorder" (forgive the bad spelling)

I don't want to harm anyone with this. I just want a wheelchair and use it. When my hip was damaged in the car accident they sent me for out patient x-rays. They put me in a wheelchair.

It just...felt right. Like I was meant to be in one. And I don't understand it. I will talk to my doc about it.

Any thoughts?

 

[MartyMuppets]

I've never heard of anything like this before Sara but it does sound as if you could possibly be suffering from this BIID condition you mentioned.

I'm sure your doctor will have some suggestion as to diagnose you for it to make sure. I wish you the very best of luck Sara.

 

[Fragglemuppet]

First Sarah, I know it is late, but I'm deeply sorry about your grandmother. RIP


Next, I've never heard of BIED, but for my own part I can tell you that, even though I have no trouble walking for the mostpart, I'm not so good with long distances. I have ridden in a wheelchair not only when I've been in the hospital, but also once or twice in the airport, and once at EPCOTT, and it did relax me somewhat! Then of course there were the layovers, when it seemed like I was just sitting in it too much, and then it was hard to get out and walk or even just stand again, but... In other words, even though I'm not going to say I understand it, I do believe in to each their own.

Good luck with everything!

 

[Ilikemuppets]

I think evrybody has something abut them that seems unusual to others. I know I have a lot of things like that about me and you're first thought is that everybody else would think you're a sort of sick person if they knew. So I think your normal.

 

[CensoredAlso]

I think this is definitely something for a professional to comment on, I'd do that first definitely.

But I do kinda understand. A wheelchair is something different than you're used to so it represents something new and challenging and exciting (especially since you don't actually need to use it).

 

[ReneeLouvier]

Wow. I'm suprised I'm getting responded. And positive at that! Goodness. I will still talk to my doc about it.

I'm half-tempted to get a wheelchair of my own. I wonder if that would be bad.

Here's a website guys: www.transabled.org

It might give some information on it. Possibly.

 

[Muppet Newsgirl]

I'm going to second the others and recommend that you talk to a doctor about that, Sara. I've got two doctors for parents and this is the first time I've ever heard of BIID.

I've ridden in a wheelchair only once, when I was five - I'd had to go to the hospital early in the morning because I was really sick to my stomach. Turned out it was nothing more than the usual "flu," but I got to ride in a wheelchair out to the parking lot and I thought it was the coolest thing in the world - like heralde said, probably because I almost never need a wheelchair.