Chapter 22: Unlearning and Relearning
Piggy wasn’t a big fan of early rising, but she had been awake for hours. When the sun first peeped over the horizon, she had turned her snout into Kermit’s shoulder and enjoyed the sleepy warmth of snuggling with her frog. Kermit stirred and made a small sound of contentment, but did not rouse, so Piggy lay there as the sun illuminated the swamp and prayed for another sort of illumination. She turned the problem over in her head until it took on phantasmagorical dimensions, then snorted at her own folly. She had never had a close relationship with a sibling and the only sort of jealousy she had ever experienced did not yield any helpful insights. There was a lot she didn’t know, but she knew about pain, and Maggie’s pain was almost visible, a glaring wound in her soul. In the midst of Piggy’s own anger and hurt, she could not be blind to Margaret’s. Still, the thought of Kermit’s quiet unhappiness and the puzzled hurt in his voice tempered any thoughts of clemency.
One thing that eluded Piggy’s repeated attempts to understand was the source of Maggie’s dismay She had never done anything to Maggie (although she had recently considered a number of distinct possibilities), and while she’d received the brunt of Maggie’s venom, Kermit’s confession last night made it clearer than ever that he was the one she was truly angry with.
Hmm…here was something new to think about. Piggy had been mad at Kermit innumerable times, and tried to think if that was useful. Thinking about all those times made her smile, and she thought about how easily all of her anger at Kermit could disappear once she was in his presence. It had never actually seemed to matter to her whether or not he apologized, or defended, or slithered artfully around the hot topic of the day—just being with him had seemed balm enough.
Not so long ago, Piggy was so hurt and angry and dismal that she had considered leaving the performing family she’d been with for so long. The thought of leaving the muppets had been daunting, but not as daunting as the prospect of staying without some proof of Kermit’s love and affection. Piggy stopped for a moment to mull this around, and to give silent thanks for the gift of being here, known and loved, in Kermit’s arms.
Piggy heard the sounds of other folks stirring and wondered. She wondered what king of night Maggie passed, what Kermit’s family had thought of the events of the past week, what she might wear that day and what Jane was cooking for breakfast…. Piggy laughed as the thought made her mouth water. She wriggled out from under Kermit’s arm and went to get dressed.
Jane had been up almost as early as Piggy. She had wanted a quiet moment to work on something, because working with her hands helped her mind to still so she could think about things. She had been thinking about Margaret, and while no miraculous insights had come, Jane had finally conceded that Kermit and James had done all there was to be done until her wayward daughter finally came to her senses.
Despite being angry and disappointed with her daughter, Jane had been a mother too long to not recognize that there was something other than malice or caprice in Margaret’s actions. There had always been a restlessness in Maggie, a colossal impatience with the world, that had often seemed to match Kermit’s dreams of making people happy. But while Kermit’s dream had come into sharp focus and transmuted into reality, Maggie’s restiveness had never found a cause to rally around. She was looking for her own rainbow connection, and it eluded her still.
Jane’s musings were cut short when Cee Cee emerged from the bushes and displayed the fruits of her great-aunt’s labor.
“Oh!” cried Cee Cee reverently. She twirled, and the little skirt flared around her. Cee Cee had never in her life felt so dainty and lovely. “Oh, Aunt Jane—thank you! Thank you!” She threw her arms around her great-aunt’s shoulders and hugged her tight while Jane relished the press of that small, soft body. They grow up so fast, she thought with dismay. Too fast.
“Well, thank your cousin Piggy, too,” said Jane. “That where the fabric came from.”
Cee Cee nodded energetically. “This is like her bathing suit!” she said excitedly.
“It was her bathing suit,” corrected Jane. “After it got torn, Piggy asked if I could use the material.”
“And you did!” Cee Cee said. She twirled again, looking over her shoulder to admire the way the little skirt added the illusion of grown-up femininity to her kindergarten-inspired frame. “Can I—can I wear it today?”
“Yes,” said Jane happily. “You most certainly may.”
Cee Cee skipped off, twirling every third step, and left Jane alone with her thoughts. That was another one with wanderlust in her soul, thought Jane, and she smiled and started to make breakfast.
“Do that again,” demanded Matthias, watching Elliot’s hand move up and down the fretted neck of the instrument. Elliot obliged and Matthias looked appropriately gape-mouthed at his brother. He shifted a little tailed frog in his arms and leaned forward for a better look. The little frog held tight to his dad’s neck and peered with sober interest at what the two older frogs were looking at.
“Kermit showed you that?” Matthias asked unnecessarily.
“Yep,” said Elliot happily. “It makes the key change a lot faster when you’re picking.”
“Can I—can I try?”
“Sure!” said Elliot. He reached his arms out for his brother’s little hitch-hiker. “C’mere, Puddin’—come to your Uncle Elliot.”
Puddin’ (whose real name, Jerrell, had long been abandoned by his parents and siblings) surged happily toward his Uncle Elliot, who swung him wildly around before settling him on his waist. He watched his dad lift the banjo and make a few chords.
“A B C D E F G!” Puddin’ sang, hopeful of accompaniment, but none was forth-coming. Matthias was intent on the musical instrument in his hands, but Elliot grinned.
“Good job!” he said, and he sounded so much like his eldest brother that a Sesame Street native would have turned to look. “What comes after ‘G’?”
“A B C D E F G!” Puddin’ sang again.
Elliot’s smile broadened. “Okay, buddy—we’ll work on the rest of it, okay?”
“Okay,” said Puddin’, who had no clue but liked to be agreeable.
The instrument has ceased making sounds of distress, and was actually producing something moderately tuneful. Matthias gritted his hard palette and tried again, doing a fairly convincing imitation of what Elliot had played.
“Much easier,” he said thoughtfully.
“Except for having to un-learn what you already know!” his brother added.
“Yeah, that’s the rub, isn’t it?” Matthias said ruefully. “Forgetting what you know so you can learn something new. But once you get the hang of it….”
Puddin’ was now reaching for his father. “Dada,” he insisted, and his father laughed and lifted his youngest from his uncle’s arms, trading one noise-maker for another as he passed over the banjo.
“Tonight, I’ll bring my guitar and see if I can do some damage.”
“Good answer,” said Elliot, and went on his own way.
After breakfast and some earnest conversation with her mother-in-law, Piggy had taken a not-so-aimless stroll toward one of the less-frequented swimming holes. Piggy might not be a naturalist at heart, but she knew when she was being watched.
“I know you’re here,” she said flatly. “Your mother told me you’d be here.”
This exhibition of parental omnipotence did little to dispel Maggie’s dark mood, but she deigned to show herself rather than look childish by continuing to hide. She settled herself on a tree stump.
“I wasn’t hiding,” she said coolly.
“Good thing,” said Piggy in kind, and Maggie’s eyes narrowed.
“Like you would have found me if my mother hadn’t told you where I was.”
Piggy crossed her arms across her chest and regarded her self-appointed enemy dispassionately. “I thought you weren’t hiding,” she observed mildly, and Maggie glared at her.
Okay, they both proven that could be complete snots, but that wasn’t going to help. Piggy forced herself to back down a little.
“Maggie, I’m not your enemy.”
Margaret made a rude noise. “It’s over,” she said sullenly. “You won, I lost, okay?”
“This isn’t about winning and losing.”
“Easier to say from where you’re standing.”
“Maybe,” Piggy conceded. “But this is the vantage point I have, so…”
“Look—I get it,” Maggie said sarcastically, but the sarcasm didn’t quite hide the pain. “Kermit picked you instead of us.”
Piggy’s eyes narrowed shrewdly. Áhhhhh. “You mean he picked me instead of you.”
Maggie’s mouth fell open in shock and fury.
“Get out! Get out of my swamp!” Maggie had shot to her feet, her whole body trembling with indignation.
“I was invited,” Piggy said coolly, “and the last time I checked, the swamp doesn’t belong to you.”
“Fine. Then I’ll leave.” She pushed past Piggy, managing to ram her with her hard little shoulder. Piggy gritted her teeth and managed not to retaliate.
“That works pretty well for you, doesn’t it?” she said instead. Her voice was smooth, mocking, and it stopped Maggie dead in her tracks. She turned and stared.
“What are you talking about?”
“When the going gets tough, you seem to find somewhere else to be. What are you afraid of, anyway?”
“Me?” shouted Maggie. “I’m not afraid. I’m not the one who left.”
“No,” Piggy said quietly. “You’re the one who stayed.”
“Yes!” Maggie bellowed. “I stayed. I did what I was supposed to do. Kermit’s the one who left—the one who just had to go to Hollywood and leave all of us here.”
“He’s back now,” Piggy said, but gently.
“But he brought it with him!” She gave Piggy a scornful look. “He brought you with him.”
“Yes. To meet his family.”
“Fine—you’ve met us. You can go already.”
“I don’t think Kermit’s ready to leave.”
“Then—then maybe I’ll go away!”
“Maybe you should--until you can play nice with others.” Piggy's voice was still calm, but now it had an edge to it.
Maggie wanted to hit her.
“How dare you!”
“I dare pretty easily, sweetie, but then, I guess you think that’s your territory, too.”
Maggie tried to think of a snappy comeback but failed spectacularly. “I don’t know what you’re talking about,” she snapped, marching away, “and since it can’t be that relevant—“
“Kermit left.”
Maggie stopped in her tracks and turned to stare at Piggy, her eyes narrowing dangerously.
“What?”
“I said, ‘Kermit left.’ Left the swamp, left you.”
The color was draining out of Maggie’s face. He green pallor was dimming to chartreuse.
“He did not—“
“You were supposed to be the adventurous one, right? Kermit was the one who was more timid, always followed your lead.”
“That was—we were just—“
“Kids,” Piggy finished levelly. “And now you’re not, and Kermit is the one who went out into the great unknown and had adventures.”
“He was doing that before he met you!” Maggie flung.
“True,” Piggy conceded, cocking her head on the side. “And he was doing it after he left you.”
“Kermit didn’t leave me!” Maggie wailed, feeling the hot tears spring up in her eyes. She glared at Piggy, her hands balled into hard little fists, her shoulders hunched like a fighter.
“That’s right,” Piggy said gently. “He didn’t leave you. He didn’t leave the swamp, either. He just…followed his dream, and it took him some unexpected places.”
Maggie humphed and turned away.
“Kermit’s dream has made a lot of people happy, Maggie. You should be proud of your brother.”
“Don’t you tell me what I should and shouldn’t do!” Maggie shouted. “And what do you know about it, anyway! I am proud of Kermit—I’m more proud of him than anyone!”
There was a silence, then in that silence, Piggy said quietly, “I know that must mean a lot to Kermit.”
“I never told him!” Maggie flung, then stopped as though stung. “I…I never told him.”
Piggy’s voice was gentle again, all the steel gone. “Then maybe you should. I know—“ She stopped abruptly at the challenge in Maggie’s eye, rephrasing her comment. “Your opinion means a lot to Kermit,” she said at last. “He’d like to know he had your approval.”
“Kermit…wants my approval?”
Piggy nodded. “I think he needs it.”
Maggie’s face crumpled, her lips trembling. “Kermit—needs my approval,” she said haltingly, as though the idea had never occurred to her.
“He’d like your blessing.”
Maggie bristled immediately, but Piggy put up her hand. The enormous diamond sparkled in the sunlight and Piggy wished she’d used her other hand, but what was done was done.
“Not for marrying me,” she said distinctly. “You don’t have to like that. You can dislike me all you want, but Kermit would like to know that you’re not mad at him anymore. For leaving. For following his dream out of the swamp.”
“I didn’t realize....” Maggie said, shaken. “I…I never meant….”
Piggy would have liked to put a comforting hand on Maggie’s arm, but knew it was a bad idea. She settled for a cautious smile instead. “It’s okay,” she said softly. “It’s not too late to fix it if you want to.”