I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post here; if I'm not, just ignore my post.
I've been dealing with problems for a long time now. They aren't huge problems, but they affect me very much.
I've had a crush on this girl since the 6th grade (I'm in high school now) and we were great friends during the 6th grade. I moved away after the 6th grade. Right after 7th grade started, we talked on Facebook. At the time, my family was living with another family member. We ended up dating for a while that year. We broke up after a few months; she had said "she found a guy that made her happy". She was always in my thoughts though; That year, I also met my best friend. Nothing really happened that was bad until a month or so before I entered high school. She contacted me again, saying that she had realized that she truly loved me. This made me happier than ever. We dated for a while 8 months; during the last 2 months, she lost her Facebook password. So I called her multiple times. On the last occasion, we talked for a while. Later during the call, in the background, I heard her mom say, "Who are you talking to?" Then she said the name of another guy. My ex said "No, my other boyfriend." I then asked her, "What did you say?" She said "Oh, it's nothing." It was silent for a few seconds. I then said "I want to know what you said." Silence again. She then said, "I have another boyfriend." She didn't apologize; she just said that, and then nothing. I said "wow", and hung up. I just sat there for a minute. I was in disbelief. I then screamed in my pillow, and cried. I cried (on and off) for about an hour. Once I was done, I went to bed. That night, I told my friend I might kill myself. I had enough of life, and that I had no purpose in life. Luckily, my friend talked me out of it. I actually went to school the next day. I can't even tell you how many times I had to go to cry in the bathroom My friend eventually found out; then my sister and mom; and my dad did too, but didn't say anything about it. Then, we had to move. We were being sent to court for not paying our rent. We left the house, and had to move into a motel (under temporary housing). We're still living in that motel room. I considered committing suicide again. My friend talked me out of it again. This past school year has been ok. My friend also just told me he's moving, which means I'll be alone in school next year.
I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I feel like my life has no meaning. I have nothing in my life. I feel like just ending it all. I have no purpose. I don't know if I want help at this point; there's nothing that can be done anyway.
Once again, if I can't post here, sorry.
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