My anxiety has been up and lately seeing as something very difficult happened to me just two weeks ago. My father forced me to leave his house and I'm now in my mother's protective custody until November when the next hearing is. I mean, she's not perfect, but, she's really gotten clean and made up for her mistakes of the past. And now that I'm in my mom's custody, my father is trying to do everything in his power just to take me away from her when he's the one who kicked me out in the first place. And I'm much happier in my mother's house and well, its not the spic and span nice big condominium with my own bathroom that I used to live in, its a smaller and more urban apartment, but, I realize that I don't need a fancy-shmancy place to live. I just need my parent to be there for me. I switched therapists because my old therapist was on my father's side because he fed her lies about whatever and she's trying to twist words I said and say that I'm incredibly mentally ill and need a psychiatrist to give me SEVERAL pills when my new therapist has said the very opposite and she even believes that my father fighting with me and him trying to shove his fiancee down my throat had something to do with anxiety flare-ups I had. My father was even trying to get a letter from my old therapist stating that I was crazy! But, thankfully, the judge at court refused to accept such a thing and said that was very unprofessional of my old therapist!
I saw my new therapist yesterday and my father was supposed to call her and find out when the appointment was (he had the number, he was given it in court) because my mom has a restraining order against him, so, she can't call him and I've very scared to call him or contact him in anyway. I mean, I had to get a court order and a police escort to go and get my asthma medications out of my house (now my former house), can't you see how I'd be scared? And well, my father didn't show yesterday and I can't say that surprised me. He's convinced that my mom brain-washed me and turned me against him and that we're both gold diggers who just want money which is not true at all! All I want is to be in my mother's custody for my last few months as a minor because I refuse to be ignored 24/7 which was what my father had started to do. And well, the impression that my father's no-show yesterday gave me was this: He's got his fiancee and his replacement kids to be, so, I guess he made his choice.
I'm significantly calmer at my mom's, but. the nervousness of November is eating me. Even my new doctor said I need to just relax, I'm currently very sick with a cold and some sinus issues and she's said that because I'm so stressed all the time it makes me more susceptible to getting sick :/
I am trying to calm down which is working to a point, but, some part of me tends to worry always.