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Hattie’s response to that was cut off by the sounds coming from the living room, which reached the door to the kitchen before the new occupants even walked in. It was Piggy and Ham, both looking as though they’d just gone through an emotional ringer however it seemed they were in a better mood than when they had left.
“There you are.”
“Here I am,” Piggy said, walking towards where Kermit had taken a seat at the kitchen island. Despite repeated attempts to help with both lunch and dinner preparations, the frog had instead been turned down and literally benched while things went on around him.
“Where’ve you been?”
Shrugging one shoulder, she answered, “Around.”
Kermit held up the fancy smartphone she had neglected to take with her. “You forgot your phone.”
“Huh,” she replied, taking it from him and turning on the screen. The few alerts that popped up told her she had a few emails to look over, a text from Rowlf that she would need to respond to, and a few updates that she would need to authorize. “That’s not like me.”
“It is completely unlike you,” the frog whispered, staring at her.
She could clearly see the worry in his eyes, even if he tried to play it off in his expression. She figured she didn’t look any better, after the afternoon they had. After watching their older brother break down, she and Ham had consoled him – and ultimately each other – before heading back to the car, all three bundling up in the backseat just to be together. As with their late night snack a few nights ago, sitting in the quiet and warm backseat of her older brother’s truck made for a cozy confessional.
Nate apologized for the scene he caused, however Piggy was quick to shush him and instead apologize for her own behavior, for not being a better sister, with Ham echoing her statements that they should have all been better siblings, not just to him but to each other. They had all let their petty resentments and jealousies cloud their minds far longer than they should have and now, they would never get the chance to put these things to rest between themselves, their sister, their mother, and their father.
However, as Ham mentioned, they still had a house full of relatives they could start with and two sisters who had been mysteriously, and now worryingly, missing from the fray.
The three hadn’t even wondered how long they had been out there until Nate’s stomach rumbled and, seeing the time, realized they had been gone for several hours already. Though they knew they needed to pull themselves together in order to look presentable – Piggy noting that Kermit would immediately know something had been wrong once he saw her tell-tale signs of crying – but ultimately, they didn’t care. They had spent the entire weekend trying to keep their walls up and now that they had crumbled all around them, they didn’t have the energy to build them back up.
And just as suspected, Piggy knew Kermit was aware she had been crying, but she hoped that her relaxed attitude would show that the sadness was put to bed for the moment. Giving him a cheeky smile, she cooed, “Aw Kermie, were you worried about me?”
He huffed, saying, “No” however the very look on his face told another story. Piggy was very familiar with a worried Kermit, especially when she managed to be in the circle of people that could worry him the most. It was just another reason why she loved him so – even if they never got back together again, she knew he would and could never stop caring about her.
Stroking his cheek lovingly, she whispered, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to worry you.”
“S’okay.”
Shaking her head slightly, she said, “It’s not, it’s really not. And I am sorry. I’ll make it up to you.”
Grinning, Kermit asked, “You’ll make it up to me?”
Poking him in the shoulder, she amended that sentence. “I meant dinner.”
Capturing the hand at his shoulder, he subconsciously moved it to cover his heart before covering it with his own. “Oh, I like dinner,” he whispered, his grin turning into a soft smile.
Rubbing at one of the points on his collar, she said, “I know you do.”
“I hate to break up romantic moments and such,” Ham interrupted, smirking at the two. “But I’d just like to remind you both that you’re standing in the very public kitchen, with two other people.”
“Like that’s ever stopped them,” quipped Gonzo, as he and Fozzie walked through the door to hear the end of the psychologist’s remark. The weirdo gave the diva’s shoulder a squeeze as he passed by, while Fozzie threw his arms around her in a backwards hug, which caused her to giggle at his very audacity. At any other time, Piggy would never have revealed herself to be so vulnerable, but if she couldn’t be herself with three people she considered to be family, how would ever be herself with her actual family?
Sunday night’s dinner was a far cry from Thursday’s when it seemed the entire family hated one another with a passion; what a difference a few days and a funeral could make. The house was once again full, but this time with family as Sarah and the kids stayed, making this a true family dinner. And, as promised earlier in the week, Hattie had made roast beef, something Hortense had loved eating as a child and loved making as an adult. The second girl in the Maline line admitted it wouldn’t be as good as her sister’s but the table dismissed the notion as they all helped themselves to seconds.
This was the last night for the Gillespies, as they would need to drive up to Michigan and it was late in the day already. Blackjack exchanged email addresses and phone numbers with Gonzo, much to Piggy’s distress. “I promise nothing I tell him is gonna hurt him,” her cousin responded, knowing that it was never good to get on her bad side. “Besides, Zo looks like he can take anything that’s thrown at him.”
“Everything but a wall,” Fozzie joked, reminding them of the one time the stunt weirdo hadn’t managed to avoid a wall.
“If he does…” the diva threatened.
“He won’t,’ Blackjack insisted, holding his hands up in surrender. “Besides, I know the consequences of getting on your bad side. Don’t want to make that mistake again. I like having full use of my arm.”
“Don’t be so dramatic,” his cousin grinned. “It was just a little break.”
The Maline siblings said goodbye to each other, themselves coming to some sort of understanding that hadn’t been there before. Hattie and Millie promised to keep in touch and to visit, with their proximity only a few hours away by car and a shorter plane ride. Millie then turned to her niece and nephews, promising to drop them a line more often, just to see how they were. Pulling back from the hug she was giving Piggy, the elder pig was suddenly struck by how much her niece resembled her sister.
Oh, there were bits of her father there – from the eyes to the smile, but the face, especially in the curious look she gave her aunt spoke volumes of how much of her mother was inside. “What?” Piggy asked.
Shaking her head, Millie whispered, “Sometimes I forget how much you girls look like your mother. Oh, you have your father’s eyes and his smile, but…you are your mother’s daughter.”
Piggy ducked her head in embarrassment. She still wasn’t sure on her feelings in regards to her mother, but this was one of the few times that the comparison filled her with a sort of pride instead of abject horror and disgust. Ricky Lane also said goodbye, though he wouldn’t be heading back to Boston until tomorrow, he still needed to get sleep so he could make his flight.
Like his sister before him, he said goodbye to his family, promising he wasn’t going to let the years pass by the way he did with Hortense, making sure he had everyone’s numbers and contact info in his phone before leaving.
The others began to clear up their dinner, with the group helping to wash and dry dishes, preventing Ida from lifting one finger to help. While they worked in the kitchen, the elderly matron took the opportunity to gather a few items that Hortense had given her, with the promise she would give them to the appropriate people when the time came. When she returned to the living room, she held three letters in her lap; Hortense had written them before her untimely death, eleven in the time Ida had seen her last – six for her younger siblings and five for her remaining children.
There had been fifteen in total, with three of those buried in the graves of her father, her former husband, and her now deceased youngest daughter. The last she had read while Ida sat at her bedside, that letter being for her, her mother. Though Ida’s heart would always clinch at those last few days, the burden of guilt that she had carried about her eldest had been lifted, their issues with each other resolved before Hortense took her last breath. The matron knew whatever Hortense had written to the others were just words on a page, despite them coming from the heart, and there would be no way to show that those words had meant something and no way to back them up with the apologies that were needed.
Ida knew that would be the case with her own youngest daughters, but she held out hope that perhaps Hortense’s children could see the light; she had originally thought to give them out tomorrow, on the leave of everyone, but seeing her family come together made her decide to hand them out sooner than later. She was waiting for them when they emerged from the kitchen, laughing at some joke they must have made while cleaning up. They of course immediately spotted their grandmother sitting on the couch, as though she had been waiting for them.
For a brief moment, the remaining three grandchildren wondered if perhaps she had discovered their pie deception from the day before, however from the look she gave them, it was clear that there was something else she wanted to discuss with them. “Everything cleaned up in there?” she asked, waiting until they stood at her side.
“Spit spot, Grandma,” Nate replied, giving her a small smile.
“That’s what I like to hear,” she said, getting to her feet and waving off their offers to help. “When you get to be my age, it seems bedtime is earlier and earlier.”
“You’re not old, Grandma,” Ham dismissed.
“You’ll outlive us for sure one day,” Piggy added.
“Flattery don’t work with me, Missy,” the matron quipped, patting her granddaughter on the arm. “I need to get going, but before I do, I wanted to give you these.” She gave each grandchild their letter, answering their confused looks and unasked questions with, “They’re from your mother. She wanted you to have them, before she left this world.”
The trio looked at the letters in their hands before glancing at each other. “Hattie, you ready to go?”
“I’ll be right there, Mama!”
“Have a good night, piglets,” Ida whispered, giving each of them a smile as she and Hattie began to gather their belongings to head to their own homes, leaving the three to contemplate what to do next.
“Well,” Nate replied, placing his letter in his back pocket. “I think Grandma has the right idea. It’s way past the bedtime for little piglets, especially those who have school tomorrow.”
“Aw!”
“C’mon Dad! It’s still early!”
“Not for your sister,” Sarah chastised, picking up the little girl and carrying her over to the group. Knowing that she needed to go to bed, thus not being able to see Fozzie or Gonzo or Kermit the next day started a small tantrum for Ellie. Toddlers of course hated to leave the excitement being experienced by adults and this was especially true when the adults were their favorites.
It took the combination of Fozzie, Gonzo, and Kermit to calm the girl and promise that this was not the last she would see of them; in fact, they ensured her that it would need to take a lot for them to not only return, but invite her to visit them in California. “Of course the baby gets what she wants,” Eli groused, good-naturedly. He knew they were most likely saying those things to get his sister to stop crying, but he’d be lying if he didn’t wish they were true.
His aunt must have realized his dilemma or seen the slight look of disappointment on his face because she threw an around his shoulders in a side hug. “Moi shouldn’t even condone setting you loose on those poor, helpless girls in Hollywood,” she replied, winking at him. “But you are Moi’s nephew and I’ve already let loose Andy and Randy, so of course it wouldn’t be fair to keep you all to myself.”
“No, of course not,” he quipped, returning the hug. “I wouldn’t want to put you on the spot, after all.”
Giving him another squeeze, she whispered to him, “Clear it with your parents and I’ll buy the ticket. Just say when.”
She had a lot to make for, especially with her nephews and niece and she was going to do a lot better at showing them that she did indeed care and love them. With a trip in the making, Nate and his family said their goodbyes, with her brother assuring them he would be back tomorrow in order to see them off; that left Ham and Piggy deciding what to do now.
Looking down at the envelope in his hand, Ham nodded a goodnight to his sister, calling to his boys to come upstairs with him, the support he would need in order to get through this mysterious letter.
Piggy sighed, her eyes being drawn to her envelope the way her brother’s had. These were apparently the last words and thoughts from her mother and she couldn’t lie that she was both curious and terrified to read what she had written. They had not parted on the best of terms and the diva was nearly sure that her mother had given just as good she had gotten, with a letter full of all the things Piggy wasn’t to her and maybe, some of the things she was.
Piggy had never shied away at the fact of her persona being overt, doing what needed to be done in order to keep people at arm’s length, least they discover what truly lay in her heart. It had been something she’d been doing since childhood and being in the entertainment capital of the world made it all that much easier to hide herself away while the new celebrity persona took her place. This had been the most open she had probably been with anyone, even Kermit, who knew her better than herself sometimes.
“Do you want a moment?”
And just like that, there he was, offering her the space she might need in order to confront what could be harsh truths in the letter she held. Any other time, she would’ve agreed to it, told them to leave her to it, let her be alone with the past she had been so happy to hide and bury; this time, however, she decided she was done hiding. For this moment, she was going to let a little bit of that vulnerability show.
“No,” she whispered, shaking her head slightly. “You can stay. You should stay; moral support and all.”
“You gonna read it?” Gonzo asked, indicating her letter with a nod of his head.
Opening her mouth to say something, Piggy once again shook her head, instead handing the letter to Kermit, indicating that she needed – trusted – him to read it for her. She did however over to the fireplace to lean against the mantel; while she wanted to head her mother’s words, it didn’t mean that she looked forward to hearing them.
Kermit settled himself on the couch, while Fozzie and Gonzo sat nearby, hoping to offer counsel, when or if she asked. Then Kermit began to read –
My dearest daughter,
If you’re reading this, then I am dead.
It was my own stubborn pride that led me to keep my health woes to myself, a mistake I’m sure, as you, your siblings, and mine are reading these things instead of me standing there and telling them to you in person. And these things I’ve said are words I wished, longed, to tell you in person. But it’s not to be and now, I so wish I could have seen you one last time.
I know what you think of me and in my deepest heart, I wish I could change your mind. I know I can’t and I wish I had made a better effort when you were still here, to tell you my hopes and wishes for you. And though late, I think now is the time, one last time to tell you of my heart.
Did I ever tell you that I was once the runner up to Miss Iowa? I was much younger than and it was before I met your father, but it was something that I still hold dear. It wasn’t going to be a career, mind, just something I wanted to see if I could do, see if I could win. When I introduced you and then Virgi to it, I only wanted you to have the same sense of accomplishment and pride that I held, never thinking this was a path that you never wanted to take.
The truth is, you’ve done just fine without my guidance.
I’ve followed your career, Piggy, and you have achieved more than I could have ever hoped to be possible. What mother wouldn’t want to state that her daughter had a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame; that she was the star of stage and screen? I am so proud of you, Piggy Lee; proud and awed so much by you, words can’t begin to explain. I have always known you would go on to do great things; you are my daughter, even if by now you’d want to deny that.
Despite your best efforts, darling, you keep within you my stubborn streak and unapologetic pride, coupled with your father’s charm and mischievousness. I know you blame me for his leaving and maybe even his death. It was wrong of me to keep him from you kids, worse for trying to make it seem as though he never existed. The truth was I was just as hurt, saddened, and betrayed as you kids were and I let my hurt dictate how he should have been remembered.
I loved your father, more than I had ever loved anyone in my life. The only time that was eclipsed was when I held you and your siblings in my arms. For all his faults, your father loved you and he would be as proud as I to have a daughter as good as you. I let my hurt block my fears and feelings, heighten them until I was making the choices for you and that, I think, is when you all stopped loving me. I should have been a better mother to you, I know this now, and as I die, this is my greatest regret. Please allow me to rectify it, even if it’s only words on paper.
You, Piggy Lee Hogglesworth, are one of a kind. I know you felt as though I let your sisters off the hook sometimes, let them get away with things I never would have tolerated from you; this might be true, but only because I expected you to succeed at everything you ever did. You weren’t one to give up, even when people told you to do so. That stubbornness is all Maline – we don’t back down from a fight and our prides won’t let us apologize for it either.
Thankfully, you got all that charm from your father, the type of charisma that can charm the pants off of anyone. Why do you think you have four younger siblings?
“Really?” Piggy murmured, turning to look at Kermit, as the other three grinned.
“Well, I’m sure if wasn’t for lack of trying,” Gonzo deadpanned.
“Don’t add,” Piggy chastised.
You are everything I could have asked for a daughter – smart, beautiful, funny, sweet; if that frog of yours isn’t aware of it, maybe you need to tell him. Malines don’t know the meaning to the word ‘subtle’; not usually at least. I wish I could have met him; he seems to care about you, even he tries his best to deny it. If he truly loves you, he won’t hesitate to tell you because you’re so easy to love, it would be hard not to.
And I do love you, my girl. I’m sorry that I didn’t say it more and that you felt as though I didn’t, because I do, with all my heart. There hasn’t been a day gone by since you left that I wish I had told you, wished I had been able to stop you from leaving the way you did. But if it meant you wouldn’t be the wonderful person you are now, then that decision is something I won’t change, because it made you you. And that is a person I hope to meet one day, far, far, far into the future.
I know there’s more I could say and maybe I haven’t said enough, but if this has helped, if you can find it in your heart to forgive me, than its done the job. If not, I understand and it’s no one’s fault but my own.
I love you, Piggy.
Yours,
Mother
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It had been an emotional day and Kermit was looking forward to getting into bed, taking Piggy in his arms, and going to sleep. While reading her mother’s letter had affected the diva more than she probably let on, he was surprised when he seemed to be affected as well. Though it was only a small passage, at most two sentences, the fact that her mother had been aware of him and their relationship hit him harder than he expected – she had wanted to meet him and he always had the small inkling of want to meet the people that had brought this uncontrollable hurricane into the world.
Kermit had always wondered what parts of her parents made up his former – current? – girlfriend. It was rare for him to have met the parents of everyone who worked with him; many of his cast members had come from broken homes, which made their association that closer and equally important to each other. But because of that, the frog had often wondered what part was parental and which part was their association that made his friends the way they were. For example, how much of Scooter was made up of his parents, Royce Grosse and Belinda Horton?
From the moment he met her, the frog had wondered what made Miss Piggy who she was, what kind of childhood did she have that made her the diva he knew?
Now he knew and once again, it made him love her even more.
He had kept a close eye on her ever since finishing her mother’s letter, wondering if she was going to break down like she had the night before, but other than a few tears, Piggy seemed to be in control of her emotions, with no signs that she was just waiting for the others to leave before her tears would really start to flow. It was either a testament of her being a great actress or she had – for the moment – come to grips with her mother’s death. He was hoping it was the latter, though he knew she would never truly feel at peace with it, knowing there had been things Piggy wanted to say or know, questions that she would never know the answers to.
Piggy seemed to be on automatic as they went through their night time ritual – getting dressed into another one of his random t-shirts that had ‘mysteriously’ disappeared and a pair of black yoga sleep pants, brushing her teeth, and setting the alarm on her phone. She was turning back the covers on her side when she suddenly stopped and whispered, “Oh my god. I remember.”
“Baby?”
Looking up at him, she repeated, “I remember.”
“Remember what, hon?” he asked.
“The other day,” she explained. “When Hattie asked if we had any stories of our mother? I was so…I couldn’t…” Shaking her head to clear it, she started again. “I remember.”
Kneeling on the bed, Kermit held out a flipper to her. “Tell me.”
“There you are.”
“Here I am,” Piggy said, walking towards where Kermit had taken a seat at the kitchen island. Despite repeated attempts to help with both lunch and dinner preparations, the frog had instead been turned down and literally benched while things went on around him.
“Where’ve you been?”
Shrugging one shoulder, she answered, “Around.”
Kermit held up the fancy smartphone she had neglected to take with her. “You forgot your phone.”
“Huh,” she replied, taking it from him and turning on the screen. The few alerts that popped up told her she had a few emails to look over, a text from Rowlf that she would need to respond to, and a few updates that she would need to authorize. “That’s not like me.”
“It is completely unlike you,” the frog whispered, staring at her.
She could clearly see the worry in his eyes, even if he tried to play it off in his expression. She figured she didn’t look any better, after the afternoon they had. After watching their older brother break down, she and Ham had consoled him – and ultimately each other – before heading back to the car, all three bundling up in the backseat just to be together. As with their late night snack a few nights ago, sitting in the quiet and warm backseat of her older brother’s truck made for a cozy confessional.
Nate apologized for the scene he caused, however Piggy was quick to shush him and instead apologize for her own behavior, for not being a better sister, with Ham echoing her statements that they should have all been better siblings, not just to him but to each other. They had all let their petty resentments and jealousies cloud their minds far longer than they should have and now, they would never get the chance to put these things to rest between themselves, their sister, their mother, and their father.
However, as Ham mentioned, they still had a house full of relatives they could start with and two sisters who had been mysteriously, and now worryingly, missing from the fray.
The three hadn’t even wondered how long they had been out there until Nate’s stomach rumbled and, seeing the time, realized they had been gone for several hours already. Though they knew they needed to pull themselves together in order to look presentable – Piggy noting that Kermit would immediately know something had been wrong once he saw her tell-tale signs of crying – but ultimately, they didn’t care. They had spent the entire weekend trying to keep their walls up and now that they had crumbled all around them, they didn’t have the energy to build them back up.
And just as suspected, Piggy knew Kermit was aware she had been crying, but she hoped that her relaxed attitude would show that the sadness was put to bed for the moment. Giving him a cheeky smile, she cooed, “Aw Kermie, were you worried about me?”
He huffed, saying, “No” however the very look on his face told another story. Piggy was very familiar with a worried Kermit, especially when she managed to be in the circle of people that could worry him the most. It was just another reason why she loved him so – even if they never got back together again, she knew he would and could never stop caring about her.
Stroking his cheek lovingly, she whispered, “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to worry you.”
“S’okay.”
Shaking her head slightly, she said, “It’s not, it’s really not. And I am sorry. I’ll make it up to you.”
Grinning, Kermit asked, “You’ll make it up to me?”
Poking him in the shoulder, she amended that sentence. “I meant dinner.”
Capturing the hand at his shoulder, he subconsciously moved it to cover his heart before covering it with his own. “Oh, I like dinner,” he whispered, his grin turning into a soft smile.
Rubbing at one of the points on his collar, she said, “I know you do.”
“I hate to break up romantic moments and such,” Ham interrupted, smirking at the two. “But I’d just like to remind you both that you’re standing in the very public kitchen, with two other people.”
“Like that’s ever stopped them,” quipped Gonzo, as he and Fozzie walked through the door to hear the end of the psychologist’s remark. The weirdo gave the diva’s shoulder a squeeze as he passed by, while Fozzie threw his arms around her in a backwards hug, which caused her to giggle at his very audacity. At any other time, Piggy would never have revealed herself to be so vulnerable, but if she couldn’t be herself with three people she considered to be family, how would ever be herself with her actual family?
Sunday night’s dinner was a far cry from Thursday’s when it seemed the entire family hated one another with a passion; what a difference a few days and a funeral could make. The house was once again full, but this time with family as Sarah and the kids stayed, making this a true family dinner. And, as promised earlier in the week, Hattie had made roast beef, something Hortense had loved eating as a child and loved making as an adult. The second girl in the Maline line admitted it wouldn’t be as good as her sister’s but the table dismissed the notion as they all helped themselves to seconds.
This was the last night for the Gillespies, as they would need to drive up to Michigan and it was late in the day already. Blackjack exchanged email addresses and phone numbers with Gonzo, much to Piggy’s distress. “I promise nothing I tell him is gonna hurt him,” her cousin responded, knowing that it was never good to get on her bad side. “Besides, Zo looks like he can take anything that’s thrown at him.”
“Everything but a wall,” Fozzie joked, reminding them of the one time the stunt weirdo hadn’t managed to avoid a wall.
“If he does…” the diva threatened.
“He won’t,’ Blackjack insisted, holding his hands up in surrender. “Besides, I know the consequences of getting on your bad side. Don’t want to make that mistake again. I like having full use of my arm.”
“Don’t be so dramatic,” his cousin grinned. “It was just a little break.”
The Maline siblings said goodbye to each other, themselves coming to some sort of understanding that hadn’t been there before. Hattie and Millie promised to keep in touch and to visit, with their proximity only a few hours away by car and a shorter plane ride. Millie then turned to her niece and nephews, promising to drop them a line more often, just to see how they were. Pulling back from the hug she was giving Piggy, the elder pig was suddenly struck by how much her niece resembled her sister.
Oh, there were bits of her father there – from the eyes to the smile, but the face, especially in the curious look she gave her aunt spoke volumes of how much of her mother was inside. “What?” Piggy asked.
Shaking her head, Millie whispered, “Sometimes I forget how much you girls look like your mother. Oh, you have your father’s eyes and his smile, but…you are your mother’s daughter.”
Piggy ducked her head in embarrassment. She still wasn’t sure on her feelings in regards to her mother, but this was one of the few times that the comparison filled her with a sort of pride instead of abject horror and disgust. Ricky Lane also said goodbye, though he wouldn’t be heading back to Boston until tomorrow, he still needed to get sleep so he could make his flight.
Like his sister before him, he said goodbye to his family, promising he wasn’t going to let the years pass by the way he did with Hortense, making sure he had everyone’s numbers and contact info in his phone before leaving.
The others began to clear up their dinner, with the group helping to wash and dry dishes, preventing Ida from lifting one finger to help. While they worked in the kitchen, the elderly matron took the opportunity to gather a few items that Hortense had given her, with the promise she would give them to the appropriate people when the time came. When she returned to the living room, she held three letters in her lap; Hortense had written them before her untimely death, eleven in the time Ida had seen her last – six for her younger siblings and five for her remaining children.
There had been fifteen in total, with three of those buried in the graves of her father, her former husband, and her now deceased youngest daughter. The last she had read while Ida sat at her bedside, that letter being for her, her mother. Though Ida’s heart would always clinch at those last few days, the burden of guilt that she had carried about her eldest had been lifted, their issues with each other resolved before Hortense took her last breath. The matron knew whatever Hortense had written to the others were just words on a page, despite them coming from the heart, and there would be no way to show that those words had meant something and no way to back them up with the apologies that were needed.
Ida knew that would be the case with her own youngest daughters, but she held out hope that perhaps Hortense’s children could see the light; she had originally thought to give them out tomorrow, on the leave of everyone, but seeing her family come together made her decide to hand them out sooner than later. She was waiting for them when they emerged from the kitchen, laughing at some joke they must have made while cleaning up. They of course immediately spotted their grandmother sitting on the couch, as though she had been waiting for them.
For a brief moment, the remaining three grandchildren wondered if perhaps she had discovered their pie deception from the day before, however from the look she gave them, it was clear that there was something else she wanted to discuss with them. “Everything cleaned up in there?” she asked, waiting until they stood at her side.
“Spit spot, Grandma,” Nate replied, giving her a small smile.
“That’s what I like to hear,” she said, getting to her feet and waving off their offers to help. “When you get to be my age, it seems bedtime is earlier and earlier.”
“You’re not old, Grandma,” Ham dismissed.
“You’ll outlive us for sure one day,” Piggy added.
“Flattery don’t work with me, Missy,” the matron quipped, patting her granddaughter on the arm. “I need to get going, but before I do, I wanted to give you these.” She gave each grandchild their letter, answering their confused looks and unasked questions with, “They’re from your mother. She wanted you to have them, before she left this world.”
The trio looked at the letters in their hands before glancing at each other. “Hattie, you ready to go?”
“I’ll be right there, Mama!”
“Have a good night, piglets,” Ida whispered, giving each of them a smile as she and Hattie began to gather their belongings to head to their own homes, leaving the three to contemplate what to do next.
“Well,” Nate replied, placing his letter in his back pocket. “I think Grandma has the right idea. It’s way past the bedtime for little piglets, especially those who have school tomorrow.”
“Aw!”
“C’mon Dad! It’s still early!”
“Not for your sister,” Sarah chastised, picking up the little girl and carrying her over to the group. Knowing that she needed to go to bed, thus not being able to see Fozzie or Gonzo or Kermit the next day started a small tantrum for Ellie. Toddlers of course hated to leave the excitement being experienced by adults and this was especially true when the adults were their favorites.
It took the combination of Fozzie, Gonzo, and Kermit to calm the girl and promise that this was not the last she would see of them; in fact, they ensured her that it would need to take a lot for them to not only return, but invite her to visit them in California. “Of course the baby gets what she wants,” Eli groused, good-naturedly. He knew they were most likely saying those things to get his sister to stop crying, but he’d be lying if he didn’t wish they were true.
His aunt must have realized his dilemma or seen the slight look of disappointment on his face because she threw an around his shoulders in a side hug. “Moi shouldn’t even condone setting you loose on those poor, helpless girls in Hollywood,” she replied, winking at him. “But you are Moi’s nephew and I’ve already let loose Andy and Randy, so of course it wouldn’t be fair to keep you all to myself.”
“No, of course not,” he quipped, returning the hug. “I wouldn’t want to put you on the spot, after all.”
Giving him another squeeze, she whispered to him, “Clear it with your parents and I’ll buy the ticket. Just say when.”
She had a lot to make for, especially with her nephews and niece and she was going to do a lot better at showing them that she did indeed care and love them. With a trip in the making, Nate and his family said their goodbyes, with her brother assuring them he would be back tomorrow in order to see them off; that left Ham and Piggy deciding what to do now.
Looking down at the envelope in his hand, Ham nodded a goodnight to his sister, calling to his boys to come upstairs with him, the support he would need in order to get through this mysterious letter.
Piggy sighed, her eyes being drawn to her envelope the way her brother’s had. These were apparently the last words and thoughts from her mother and she couldn’t lie that she was both curious and terrified to read what she had written. They had not parted on the best of terms and the diva was nearly sure that her mother had given just as good she had gotten, with a letter full of all the things Piggy wasn’t to her and maybe, some of the things she was.
Piggy had never shied away at the fact of her persona being overt, doing what needed to be done in order to keep people at arm’s length, least they discover what truly lay in her heart. It had been something she’d been doing since childhood and being in the entertainment capital of the world made it all that much easier to hide herself away while the new celebrity persona took her place. This had been the most open she had probably been with anyone, even Kermit, who knew her better than herself sometimes.
“Do you want a moment?”
And just like that, there he was, offering her the space she might need in order to confront what could be harsh truths in the letter she held. Any other time, she would’ve agreed to it, told them to leave her to it, let her be alone with the past she had been so happy to hide and bury; this time, however, she decided she was done hiding. For this moment, she was going to let a little bit of that vulnerability show.
“No,” she whispered, shaking her head slightly. “You can stay. You should stay; moral support and all.”
“You gonna read it?” Gonzo asked, indicating her letter with a nod of his head.
Opening her mouth to say something, Piggy once again shook her head, instead handing the letter to Kermit, indicating that she needed – trusted – him to read it for her. She did however over to the fireplace to lean against the mantel; while she wanted to head her mother’s words, it didn’t mean that she looked forward to hearing them.
Kermit settled himself on the couch, while Fozzie and Gonzo sat nearby, hoping to offer counsel, when or if she asked. Then Kermit began to read –
My dearest daughter,
If you’re reading this, then I am dead.
It was my own stubborn pride that led me to keep my health woes to myself, a mistake I’m sure, as you, your siblings, and mine are reading these things instead of me standing there and telling them to you in person. And these things I’ve said are words I wished, longed, to tell you in person. But it’s not to be and now, I so wish I could have seen you one last time.
I know what you think of me and in my deepest heart, I wish I could change your mind. I know I can’t and I wish I had made a better effort when you were still here, to tell you my hopes and wishes for you. And though late, I think now is the time, one last time to tell you of my heart.
Did I ever tell you that I was once the runner up to Miss Iowa? I was much younger than and it was before I met your father, but it was something that I still hold dear. It wasn’t going to be a career, mind, just something I wanted to see if I could do, see if I could win. When I introduced you and then Virgi to it, I only wanted you to have the same sense of accomplishment and pride that I held, never thinking this was a path that you never wanted to take.
The truth is, you’ve done just fine without my guidance.
I’ve followed your career, Piggy, and you have achieved more than I could have ever hoped to be possible. What mother wouldn’t want to state that her daughter had a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame; that she was the star of stage and screen? I am so proud of you, Piggy Lee; proud and awed so much by you, words can’t begin to explain. I have always known you would go on to do great things; you are my daughter, even if by now you’d want to deny that.
Despite your best efforts, darling, you keep within you my stubborn streak and unapologetic pride, coupled with your father’s charm and mischievousness. I know you blame me for his leaving and maybe even his death. It was wrong of me to keep him from you kids, worse for trying to make it seem as though he never existed. The truth was I was just as hurt, saddened, and betrayed as you kids were and I let my hurt dictate how he should have been remembered.
I loved your father, more than I had ever loved anyone in my life. The only time that was eclipsed was when I held you and your siblings in my arms. For all his faults, your father loved you and he would be as proud as I to have a daughter as good as you. I let my hurt block my fears and feelings, heighten them until I was making the choices for you and that, I think, is when you all stopped loving me. I should have been a better mother to you, I know this now, and as I die, this is my greatest regret. Please allow me to rectify it, even if it’s only words on paper.
You, Piggy Lee Hogglesworth, are one of a kind. I know you felt as though I let your sisters off the hook sometimes, let them get away with things I never would have tolerated from you; this might be true, but only because I expected you to succeed at everything you ever did. You weren’t one to give up, even when people told you to do so. That stubbornness is all Maline – we don’t back down from a fight and our prides won’t let us apologize for it either.
Thankfully, you got all that charm from your father, the type of charisma that can charm the pants off of anyone. Why do you think you have four younger siblings?
“Really?” Piggy murmured, turning to look at Kermit, as the other three grinned.
“Well, I’m sure if wasn’t for lack of trying,” Gonzo deadpanned.
“Don’t add,” Piggy chastised.
You are everything I could have asked for a daughter – smart, beautiful, funny, sweet; if that frog of yours isn’t aware of it, maybe you need to tell him. Malines don’t know the meaning to the word ‘subtle’; not usually at least. I wish I could have met him; he seems to care about you, even he tries his best to deny it. If he truly loves you, he won’t hesitate to tell you because you’re so easy to love, it would be hard not to.
And I do love you, my girl. I’m sorry that I didn’t say it more and that you felt as though I didn’t, because I do, with all my heart. There hasn’t been a day gone by since you left that I wish I had told you, wished I had been able to stop you from leaving the way you did. But if it meant you wouldn’t be the wonderful person you are now, then that decision is something I won’t change, because it made you you. And that is a person I hope to meet one day, far, far, far into the future.
I know there’s more I could say and maybe I haven’t said enough, but if this has helped, if you can find it in your heart to forgive me, than its done the job. If not, I understand and it’s no one’s fault but my own.
I love you, Piggy.
Yours,
Mother
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It had been an emotional day and Kermit was looking forward to getting into bed, taking Piggy in his arms, and going to sleep. While reading her mother’s letter had affected the diva more than she probably let on, he was surprised when he seemed to be affected as well. Though it was only a small passage, at most two sentences, the fact that her mother had been aware of him and their relationship hit him harder than he expected – she had wanted to meet him and he always had the small inkling of want to meet the people that had brought this uncontrollable hurricane into the world.
Kermit had always wondered what parts of her parents made up his former – current? – girlfriend. It was rare for him to have met the parents of everyone who worked with him; many of his cast members had come from broken homes, which made their association that closer and equally important to each other. But because of that, the frog had often wondered what part was parental and which part was their association that made his friends the way they were. For example, how much of Scooter was made up of his parents, Royce Grosse and Belinda Horton?
From the moment he met her, the frog had wondered what made Miss Piggy who she was, what kind of childhood did she have that made her the diva he knew?
Now he knew and once again, it made him love her even more.
He had kept a close eye on her ever since finishing her mother’s letter, wondering if she was going to break down like she had the night before, but other than a few tears, Piggy seemed to be in control of her emotions, with no signs that she was just waiting for the others to leave before her tears would really start to flow. It was either a testament of her being a great actress or she had – for the moment – come to grips with her mother’s death. He was hoping it was the latter, though he knew she would never truly feel at peace with it, knowing there had been things Piggy wanted to say or know, questions that she would never know the answers to.
Piggy seemed to be on automatic as they went through their night time ritual – getting dressed into another one of his random t-shirts that had ‘mysteriously’ disappeared and a pair of black yoga sleep pants, brushing her teeth, and setting the alarm on her phone. She was turning back the covers on her side when she suddenly stopped and whispered, “Oh my god. I remember.”
“Baby?”
Looking up at him, she repeated, “I remember.”
“Remember what, hon?” he asked.
“The other day,” she explained. “When Hattie asked if we had any stories of our mother? I was so…I couldn’t…” Shaking her head to clear it, she started again. “I remember.”
Kneeling on the bed, Kermit held out a flipper to her. “Tell me.”