I just found out less than an hour ago that I might be getting a $13 and hour job soon. Long story short there's this job coach I have who I find super irritating. He seems very nice at first smiling, laughing, energetic, what could go wrong with this guy right? It's the stuff he says that kind of brings me down, I tell him my goals and dreams in life and he says "That's great for a hobbie, but it's never going to make you money. You can just do that stuff only if you have time and just pay attention to just getting money". I have to admit yes it's still kind of a rocky economic, and I've been searching for my first job since high school in 2005. Anyway he found me a $13.00 on hour job and I got an interview. Unfortunately I'm a little afraid of it in various ways. Working in a catateria at a Navy base. And I'm a bit freaked out about it. Because of the following. (Just to let people know, there's absolutely nothing political against the Navy about what I'm going to say ) Fear of being drafted dress codes and strict social norms. Nonconformity is very important to me in terms of gender norms. Long story short I would just hate to get a buzz cut. I know that I got to wear a formal suit and tye (which I like to call a Monkey Suit based on a quote from Ed Edd N Eddy) and I know that I'm going to have to wear a uniform. Totally not looking too forward about it. Relating to two, I'm thinking of changing my apperance image to what I always wanted, more artsy and androgynous but because of the fear of dress codes at work. I need to think of ways I can still get away with dressing the way I want to but at the same time keep my job. I guess if I gel my hair and have a hair net, I won't get fired. Anyway it's mostly anxiety about balancing my appearance and keeping a job. Part of me just doesn't want it, but I need the money for equipment of my art career, and even human needs. I'm running out of food every single month and food stamps just doesn't cover it. But I don't want to get into that so much.