BeakerSqueedom
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I was hanging with the wrong crowd basically,
where there was alot of 'affection' in the crowd and well basically I was never a part of it. I was offered to join in sometimes but I always rejected and returned to my work. Later I was offered a drink in the school campus and once again I rejected--besides I hate alchohol. Tastes like rotten grapes with sour doughbread..anyways...later I was offered a cigarette but when I rejected my friend said "Why? Try it. Why? Why?" I was like "No thanks, don't you know that cigarettes have been found to increase your chances of illness and increase the ageing process? Or that it makes your teeth utterly yellow and affects the skin greatly?" and well I was still pshed to do it.
So being the quiet person I was...I walked away plotting my seperation of the group without getting pushed around. The next day (yesterday) I was carrying a flask and was still wearing my eye protectants and looking nerdier than an honor student and faced them with a heaving sigh.
I gave a long speech on how I found them degrading, disgusting, terrible and vile. So I threw the flask at this 32 year old man who was a pervert to me and to every innocent girl and screamed my heart out and pretty much dissed the group in their face. I claimed on how foolish I was to hang out with such low class people who had nothing better to do than talk about their ways of 'affection' towards that girl/boy or how they did a whole bag of nose powder that night and how I was NOT over rated for not demonstrating my 'naughty side' and never being affectionate in such a way.
My face was red and my hair was wild--I thought steam came out of my ears. My teacher tried to hold me back but somehow he understood what I was doing. Later I told my mother and..well were closer than ever despite the fact that she was mad that my grades in Botany and Math was declining.
I never thought as a little girl that the policemen in my classroom were right (D.A.R.E-you remember them?) .
I never thought I was to go through these uncomfortable situations where I only wanted to talk about the latest learned topic in history class but it drove into a whole different subject such as nose powder and how that other night went. I feel my stomach turn and twist as I write this but I never want anyone to go through such lengths to be incredibly hot and avoid being not hot.
I never did any of those things but were I an idiot I would have considered it.
: )
I know my real friends are my family and MC here.
I just want to acknowledge how much each member helps me in my daily life even though it is just a simple "hi" in a thread or a joke in the MC dorms...I always still see life with a sense of childlike simplicity because I come here--this place preserves my youth. I always feel safe.
<3
If this is something you went through. Talk to someone in your family or a teacher.
I never want any one of my buddies on MC to suffer this.
I am glad to be a nerd.
I am glad to be the local wierdo in the class who believes aliens did take part of the enslavement of the Egyptians in the time of building the Sphinx.
Or the one who has never stolen a kiss.
Or the one who suffers never being with a crowd of friends.
I am glad to tutor deaf children and not spend my time doing idiocies with the hottest guy in school.
I am glad for being who I am.
You should be too.
P.S
They did not come near me since but have been spreading rumors about me but what is not true cannot hurt you. :3
where there was alot of 'affection' in the crowd and well basically I was never a part of it. I was offered to join in sometimes but I always rejected and returned to my work. Later I was offered a drink in the school campus and once again I rejected--besides I hate alchohol. Tastes like rotten grapes with sour doughbread..anyways...later I was offered a cigarette but when I rejected my friend said "Why? Try it. Why? Why?" I was like "No thanks, don't you know that cigarettes have been found to increase your chances of illness and increase the ageing process? Or that it makes your teeth utterly yellow and affects the skin greatly?" and well I was still pshed to do it.
So being the quiet person I was...I walked away plotting my seperation of the group without getting pushed around. The next day (yesterday) I was carrying a flask and was still wearing my eye protectants and looking nerdier than an honor student and faced them with a heaving sigh.
I gave a long speech on how I found them degrading, disgusting, terrible and vile. So I threw the flask at this 32 year old man who was a pervert to me and to every innocent girl and screamed my heart out and pretty much dissed the group in their face. I claimed on how foolish I was to hang out with such low class people who had nothing better to do than talk about their ways of 'affection' towards that girl/boy or how they did a whole bag of nose powder that night and how I was NOT over rated for not demonstrating my 'naughty side' and never being affectionate in such a way.
My face was red and my hair was wild--I thought steam came out of my ears. My teacher tried to hold me back but somehow he understood what I was doing. Later I told my mother and..well were closer than ever despite the fact that she was mad that my grades in Botany and Math was declining.
I never thought as a little girl that the policemen in my classroom were right (D.A.R.E-you remember them?) .
I never thought I was to go through these uncomfortable situations where I only wanted to talk about the latest learned topic in history class but it drove into a whole different subject such as nose powder and how that other night went. I feel my stomach turn and twist as I write this but I never want anyone to go through such lengths to be incredibly hot and avoid being not hot.
I never did any of those things but were I an idiot I would have considered it.
: )
I know my real friends are my family and MC here.
I just want to acknowledge how much each member helps me in my daily life even though it is just a simple "hi" in a thread or a joke in the MC dorms...I always still see life with a sense of childlike simplicity because I come here--this place preserves my youth. I always feel safe.
<3
If this is something you went through. Talk to someone in your family or a teacher.
I never want any one of my buddies on MC to suffer this.
I am glad to be a nerd.
I am glad to be the local wierdo in the class who believes aliens did take part of the enslavement of the Egyptians in the time of building the Sphinx.
Or the one who has never stolen a kiss.
Or the one who suffers never being with a crowd of friends.
I am glad to tutor deaf children and not spend my time doing idiocies with the hottest guy in school.
I am glad for being who I am.
You should be too.
P.S
They did not come near me since but have been spreading rumors about me but what is not true cannot hurt you. :3