I've really been reviewing my life lately.
If there's one thing that everybody tells me all the time is that I'm the most negative and pessimistic person they've ever known... so since everybody says that, I guess it must be true then, because otherwise, everybody wouldn't keep telling me so.
Now, I will confess and admit, right here and right now, that I'm aware I have a tendancy to be a rather cynical person, but you know what? Life has kind of made me that way. I've always been an eccentric person, even growing up as a kid, not to mention, growing up, I've probably moved anywhere between 20 and 30 times (no exaggeration, I'm serious), and my parents were probably a combination of George Costanza's parents and Ray and Robert Barones' parents... and people expect me to be a normal person? Would I like to be a normal person? Absolutely! But I don't know how to do that. And it's not like I try to be negative or pessimistic... in all honesty, whenever I find myself in a situation, I try to examine the situation as a whole, from a realisitc standpoint, but I guess I don't even really know what realistic really is, because the only reactions I get from people are, "God, you're such a pessimist!" "Why are you always such a negative person?" "You make Eeyore look cheerful!" At the same time though, I feel like whenever someone tries to make feel more positive about something, the way the go about it, and the nature of the situation, makes me feel as if I'm being forced to look at something through cock-eyed, rose-colored glasses. Whatever I find myself in, I always approach the situation with my gut feeling... though I guess I should learn by now not to do that, because it's as if every gut feeling, premonition, foresight, etc. I have, the outcome results are always the exact opposite of what I felt would happen.
So, for everyone here whose ever been bothered by any negativity and pessimism I've displayed, I sincerely apologize, as again, it's never been my intentions at all to be that way.